best friends are hard to find...

... i guess i'm a failure in making friends, don't i?...
... everyone thinks that i'm the kind of people who make friends around and have a good network of social relationship... yes, i do admit that i make friends around, i do know a lot of people, i do have many friends , but so what? i can't even get a true best friend... i'm a failure...
... everyone has their own besties, at least a friend, whom they can share anything, talk everything, and they trust in each other... but why, i'm the one who do not have anyone to talk with? i share my everything with them, but do they do the same? i don't know...
... if i could ever find my best friend, i mean the best of the bests, i'm sure i'll be grateful of it and appreciate it very very well...

shan min, and this is for you...

... since you've tagged me for so so long, i think i better reply it now...

...4 jobs i've had in my life...
~ house-maid (perfect professional manmaid for half a year...)
~ photographer
~ typewriter...( typed all my sister's reports for her club in her university...)
~ son and friend

...4 movies i can watch over and over again...
~ Crying out love at the centre of the world (japanese movie)
~ Love Letter (japanese movie)
~ Pride and Prejudice
~ The Pianist

...4 places i've been on vacation...
~ Melbourne, Australia
~ Hatyai, Thailand
~ Goldcoast, Brisbane, Australia
~ Tioman Island, Malaysia

...4 of my favourite dishes...
~ mum's vegetables soup
~ chicken
~ vegetables
~ eggs.... (i'm not particular in food, really, any nice food will do...)

...4 places i would like to visit...
~ Italy - Venice, Rome, Florence....
~ France - Paris
~ Japan - Hokkaido, Tokyo, Kyoto....
~ New Zealand ( actually i would like to travel the world... :p)

...4 most overused words...
~ sweat / cold
~ lolz / lolx
~ hahaha / hehehe/ hohoho....
~ .................

...4 gadgets that i have...
~ a LG handset
~ thumbdrive
~ calculator
~ camera ( don't ask me the models, i'll never know...)

...4 TV shows i love to watch...
~ Honey and Clover
~ Everwood
~ A Litre of Tears
~ The O.C.

... 4 people i loverzz atm...
~ my mumm
~ my sister
~ my dad
~ my friends ( shall not name any, because i lurv em all!)

is it him?

... is it him? is it him? is it him? is it him? is it him? is it him? is it him? is it him? is it him?....................
... when i was in primary two, i had a really good friend, he was my best friend... he transferred to another school in Rawang a year later, and since that i didn't meet him anymore, lost contact with him, and he just disappeared from my world... everytime i think of him, tears just started shedding... i lost this good friend of mine, because i lost his contact, and ever since that, i just couldn't find him anymore...
...i know, maybe he has forgotten me, maybe he is living a brand new life now, a life with no trace of me inside... but for me, he is still on my mind... i didn't forget him... even though life gets more and more busy, and i meet new friends, sometimes i still think of him, just suddenly, just suddenly thinking how is he doing now...
...just now, when i was viewing my friendster account, i saw a person who viewed my profile... clicking his name, i was stunned when i viewed his profile... he looks alike with him, and he's from Rawang too... i don't know it is him or not, and i don't have the courage to ask... if it's him? if it's not him? i don't know, i don't know, i don't know!!!!!! ...........

it's back!! HOnEy and CloVeR season 2!!

... after one year of waiting, it's finally back...
...HONEY AND CLOVER SEASON 2!!!...

i think i'll cry...

...yesterday night i was thinking, how would i feel if i ever get back to Melbourne one day?...
...then i started imagine...
...the moment i get off the plane at Melbourne airport, i think i'll whisper :" after all these years, i'm here again..." and then looking around, realising that my friends are not with me this time, i'll be a little bit sad...
...if i ever get back to Melbourne, for sure i'll walk pass the Graduate House again, even though i can't stay there, i'll at least drop by and "visit" it again. "Hmmphh, i stayed here last time, yes, in the old wing of the building, with my best friends..." yeah right, we really spent a lot of nice moments in the house...
...going back to Melbourne, taking the tram is simply something u can't miss. i'll hop on the tram, going around in the city, visiting again every single place we visited before... Botanical Garden, the Shrine of Remembrance, Melbourne Zoo and many more... in my mind i'll say :"Hey, i've been here before! with my best buddies!!" and then look around and observe their changes after all these years... yeah, things may have changed a lot by that time, so do people... maybe they have becomed different people, leading their own lives, and im the only one who still cherishing our memories there... people and the surroundings change with time, we just couldn't do anything about this...
...of course, going back to Melbourne, i won't miss Phillip Island. miss all the cute penguins there... if i have the chance to drive, maybe i'll drop by at the surf shop we dropped by too, on the way to Phillip Island... doing the same pose again on the surfboard in front of the shop im planning, just that... will it still be there? sigh
...a walk on the streets is a must-do-thing for me if i ever go Melbourne again... we did most of our journey there on feet, and most of the time running. i will never forget the time we ran here and there just to watch the fireballs and take a nice picture of it... it sounds silly, but hey, it was a good memory indeed! "Hey, we did that as teens before! a lot of people simply don't have the chance to go nuts like us..."another run i remember the most was the run in the rain at night... we ran back to the House after hopping off the tram... i never knew getting wet was that fun, even though everyone was all wet and running in the rain, we were actually laughing and enjoying a good time, weren't we? at least i enjoyed it... i always hoped that we would have another chance to get wet in the rain and running in the rain, just that it didn't happened anymore...if it really rained at night when im there again, i think i won't hesitate to go out and run on the streets again, just as what we did before... silly? yes it might be... but i just want to have that feeling for another time...just one more time...
...and finally, a cup of gelato at Little Bourke Street, if im not mistaken... buy a cup of gelato and have a nice evening walk on the streets, like what we did last time, haha... i think the gelato will still be nice, but the taste will never be the same anymore without you guys, the taste of friendship is gone without you all beside me, and the gelato will not be as sweet as i first tasted it that time... that was the best gelato i had, i believe...
...the memories we had in Melbourne are to be cherished for my whole life, an experience not to be forgotten, and it shall never be forgotten... these memories are irreplacable, by anyone... so i think, if i ever get back to Melbourne, i think i'll cry... really, i think i'll cry...

now only i realised...

... just recovered from fever and a mysterious skin disease...
...red dots all over my body...
...for heaven's sake they're finally gone...

...and now, only i realised...
...realised how much my mum has sacrificed to take care of me...
...thanks mum...
...realised how much my sisters have sacrificed to let me have a good rest...
...thanks sis...
...realised how much my family members actually care for me...
...thanks my family...

...and then, only i realised...
...realised that i have been sleeping for the past 4 days...
...realised that i have 3 more episodes of hong kong drama to watch...
...realised that i have 3 more novels to finish...
...realised that i still have to meet up with my friends...
...realised that my holidays are actually coming to the end...

...and finally, only i realised...
...realised that i have a lot of things to be completed before school reopens...
...and more important is...
...MY HOMEWORK ARE NOT DONE YET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...
...and i don't have much time left...
...sigh...

it ruined my holidays...

... i always hate to fall sick, especially during holidays...( who likes? lolz) but why? why the germs and bacterias and virus always attack me during my holidays? and my mid-sem break this time is so so precious... why can't they just give me a healthy holiday... my holidays are ruined...
...starting from last Saturday, i found myself sick... got fever and sore-throat... and so i slept for the whole day, without realising that that was the beginning of my nightmare... on Sunday morning, when i was in the bathroom ready for a morning bath, i found red dots on my upper arms and on my neck... (eww... i knew something wrong that time...) went to a clinic for doctor, but he can't even tell me what are all the dots on my body! suspected chicken pox he said, but hello, it can't be chicken pox?!!!
...until now, the red dots are already all over my body, and its getting itchy and itchy... sad case... i know it's always not an easy job when u have to deal with all these virus and germs... just hope that i'll get well as soon as possible... BECAUSE this really kills me off!! my holidays are gone!!!

review: Blood Brothers...

... my holidays just started today. so after coming back from the FAR FAR AWAY KTT SEPANG, i dropped by at jusco klang to watch a movie...
... actually i wanted to watch transformers and Harry Potter, but the time was too late, and by the time i got there, jay chou's Secret has started already... so after much conflict, i decided to watch this BLOOD BROTHERS, which has a solid cast, including our nice Daniel Wu, Liu Ye, Zhang Zhen, Yang You Ning, and Shu Qi...
...at first i thought this movie will be quite boring and long-winded, as i didn't know anything about the story...( how brave am i to watch a movie of which i don't even know what the movie is about!)... however, it actually turned out to be a good movie, good enough for those who are into old-Shanghai gang fight...
...the story is about three good friends(the three main actors), who are from a rural area in China (which i suspected is SuZhou, because of its beautiful and unique sceneries)... these three "brothers" went to Shanghai, in order to make more money and lead to a better life... Daniel Wu and Yang You Ning ended up as trishaw-men and their "big brother", Liu Ye, became a waiter at a renown night club, Paradise...the story goes on as they started to get involved in Shanghai's underground organizations' fights, and their encounter with the two other characters, Zhang Zhen, playing Mark, and Shu Qi, the main actress, who plays Lulu, the night club singer... Liu Ye eventually became the big man in the organisation, due to his brutal personalities, and he became more and more cruel, brutal, and cold-blooded...when the leader of the organization got to know that Zhang Zhen was actually trying to murder him over the years( Zhang Zhen is actually his own brother!) and he also, had an affair with Shu Qi, his "woman", the leader ordered them to kill the both of them... Daniel Wu, who was the good friend of them two, refused to kill them and this led to the break-up of the two brothers... Daniel Wu helped the couple to escape, and after a gun fight between the brothers, they managed to escape, as Yang You Ning finally shot his own brother... however, the kind-hearted young guy ended up dead, beaten by his brother's people when he went back for his injured brother... and starting from this point, a series of killing and gun-shooting took place... the leader died, being killed by Liu Ye himself, and he became the new leader... after that, Shu Qi died too, when they got tracked down by Liu Ye's people down at their hometown... at last , Liu Ye himself got killed by Zhang Zhen, who went to Shanghai again with Daniel Wu to take revenge on Shu Qi's death...
... a very long and complicated storyline i guess, but these good actors really did a good job in portraying their roles in the story...Liu Ye, who plays Kang in the movie, is really good...he plays Kang perfectly i think, and again, accounts have to be given to his superb acting skills!! Shu Qi, too, did a great job as the main actress, even though it's not really perfect... Daniel Wu and Yang You Ning, did their parts equally good, and the convincing performance from Zhang Zhen surely has to be taken into accounts for the success of this movie...
...after watching this movie, i feel rather sad... if only they stayed in SuZhou, if only they didn't decide to go Shanghai, then they would not be involved in all these things... Shanghai , is just like a place for people to fight for their glory, pride and fame... the big city provides them a stage for them to shine brightly, but to achieve this, a lot of things have to be sacrificed, nothing comes without a fight, or a trade... people there chase their dreams and ambition, looking for their own paradise, but without realising , they are losing themselves... when they actually realised, it's too late for them to turn back... some people realised that they are losing themselves, but they still continue on, because their desires have become too strong that they couldn't afford to give them up...
... there were two lines that i remembered well, and they had a strong impact on me... the first one sounds like this " everyone is looking for their own paradise, but they never realised that their paradise are always the one they have in the very beginning..."... another line is like this..." after going on so many routes in life, actually life can be simple and easy..." yes, life can actually be as simple as it is, just that people tend to forget about it...
... this movie is highly recommended by me, but some people may find it boring, if they are not into this type of movie...

back in action...

... after one week of hectic studies and exams, i'm officially back into action...
... more updates coming up...

of honey and clover...

... undeniable, this is my favourite animation ever...
... HONEY AND CLOVER...
... i watched this anime for 5 times already, but i think i'll be watching it all over again if i get the chance...
... the anime is actually the story of a group of college students, Mayama, Morita, Takemoto, Hagumi and Yamada... these people are art students in a college... so the anime is about their college lives, and what they are going through in their own lives...
...they encounter love matters, friendship problems and a lot more which we all are going through too during our teenage years... it's about what we are going through now, and that's the main reason, i think, why the anime could touches my heart...
... all the things they encounter in their lives might come real in our daily lives too, in fact, some actually happens in my own real life!
... love, friendship, loneliness, stress, aren't these all problems we will most probably face in our teen lives? we have to encounter these problems, and face the problems, because it is a process we must go through as teenageers to grow up into an adult...
... in the anime, Takemoto is the character i like the most... maybe because i can actually feel what he feels... both of us are the same kind of people, our
personalities are almost the same, so i guess i've got the same frequency as him...
... HONEY AND CLOVER is really a good anime, and i look forward to watching the season 2 of the anime...
...maybe some people outside don't really like this kind of anime, depends on which kind of anime they like. but for me, it's really nice...

1st sketch in ktt...

... and finally i gave out my first sketch performance in KTT...
...2nd of AUGUST 2007, we all, the students of ALL 3, performed a sketch on family values, in front of our only audience , Mr.Rajan...
...this sketch is actually adapted from the Singapore movie "I NOT STUPID", so it's a comedy plus family sketch...
... i played the role of the child from the middle-class family.. this character of mine , erm... i think those who have watched the movie before should know what kind of child he is...
...we did the sketch quite successfully, with everyone in the class working together... and to my surprise, everyone is actually good in acting!! during practices and rehearsals, they were not serious... but, suddenly when we had to really perform, their acting skills were simply as good as real actors actresses(okay, i know, too much hyperbola isit?)...( i guess they have good potentials, or they just wanted to keep the best for the real performance?)...
...everything just went on smoothly, and we ended it up nicely...(loud applause to everyone!!)...
...this is my first sketch performance in KTT, but i guess there'll be another performance coming, as our dear Mr. Rajan wants us to perform it again during the academic week... ( maybe we acted too good ?? haha)
...glad that despite studying, i can actually take part, again, in this kind of performances... but of course, my best sketch experience is still the one we made together in kwang hua, my buddies!!!

election coming...

... MPP election will be taking place next week, the week before our mid-semester exams...
... the names will be nominated and will be pasted all over KTT, and each class has to send 3 candidates...
... as i'm an one-year-programme student, actually i have nothing to do with this election except voting... but i guess next week will be really fun as all the candidates will be all out to get votes!! haha look forward to the manifesto day!!
...more details on KTT's MPP election 2007 coming , sooner or later...