True Colors

... You with the sad eyes...
... Don't be discouraged...
... Oh i realize...
... It's hard to take courage...
... In a world full of people...
... You can lose sight of it all...
... And the darkness inside you...
... Makes you feel so small...

... But i see your true colors...
... Shining through...
... I see your true colors...
... That's why i love you...
... So don't be afraid to let them show...
... Your true colors...
... True colors are beautiful...
... Like a rainbow...

... Show me a smile then, don't be unhappy...
... Can't remember when i last saw you laughing...
... If this world makes you crazy...
... And you've taken as you can bear...
... You call me up...
... Because you know i'll be there...

review: Emi Fujita < camomile plus > ...

... well, this is my first attempt for music album review ... feeling kind of nervous now, but this album is really recommended, by me myself at least ... so if you trust in my taste, then this album is really recommended ...
... i bought this album two days ago at Popular, Jusco ... i didn't go Popular purposely just to buy this ... i made up my mind to buy it when i heard the songs myself there ... alright, no more exaggarating, the music album i'm going to write about is Emi Fujita's ...
... who's Emi Fujita ? to be frank, i don't know who she is, not even now ... but her voice, her vocal seems to be attracting me to her, very comfortable, very soft ... i wonder if i could hear her singing ... must be very nice ...
... yes, this album is not about pop and rock and hip-hop, all the songs are just as simple as they could be, nothing more than a singer singing her songs... the music instruments used are simple too, mostly guitars and pianos ... the songs recorded in this album are soft music, and mostly oldies ... maybe some people will say these songs as lullabies ...
... talking about the singer, Emi Fujita, i know nothing about her ... it's her vocal that drove me to buy this album ... she definitely has a soft voice, comfortable and nice ... listening to her songs makes me feel calm and comfortable, and all these are just what i needed most right now ... i don't know how to describe these in words, but her songs are like something you should play when you close your eyes and lay on a sofa and enjoy the melodies ...
... the songs, on the other hand, are all nice too ... no noisy drums and hell-like shrieking, just simply singing ... maybe i'm just that kind of people who is into all these genre of music ... who knows? ... <>, <>, <>, , <> and <> are some of the songs i love ... they are just nice ... just nice ...
... listening to this album gave me serene and calm moments, which i needed most at these times ... on the cover of the album, it's written "A special album to all my friends" ... true enough ... this is a special album that i would really want to share with all my friends ...

my precious one week break...

... after months of non-stop studies and examinations, the long awaited one week semester break had finally come ... everyone took it seriously, since this will be the only semester break for we the one year programme students ... planned where to go, where to shop, and where to gather during the holidays ... seems like a very very well-planned semester break for everyone of us, but how many of them really worked their plans out?? i wonder... for me myself, my whole big plan DID NOT work... how pathetic, i have planned them for so long ...
... i had 12 days of holiday, and the first half of it was spent in my sweet home, despite going out on Sunday to Carrefour, Klang ... not that i didn't have any gatherings or outings with my friends, but in the end i didn't make it to any of them ... so i spent those days at home, with most of the time watching DVDs and dramas ...
... but anyway, i've done some good work too during the holidays ... planned the new design for the living room, bought new furniture for living room, made jelly, and lots more ... (is there anymore? ;p) ...
... only a few days left before i go back to the deadly-like college, so please, please brighten up these coming few days!!! let my semester break ends with a blast!!! it's precious ...

a journey back to the past...

... today morning, for my JPA documents, i went to Kwang Hua ... actually after that, i was "supposed" to meet friends at Jusco, but everyone couldn't make it, so in the end, i went there all alone... should i be glad of this? or should i not? because of this, i got the chance, another chance to look back into my past, my former life in Kwang Hua... all these just happened to happen today, and i'm grateful to have this chance to feel back the life i had there before, the life which i appreciated so so much...
... stepping into Kwang Hua again after enrolling in KTT made me feel much more refreshed ... " A school SHOULD look like this... a school SHOULD FEEL like this..." i said to myself ... looks like i really miss my life in Kwang Hua in the past few years ... SPM still goes on today, but according to my "observation", it seemed like only arts students were having exams today ... a good opportunity for me to go around the school again, indeed... so after completing my "task" in the office, i went around Block A ( for those who have forgotten, Block A is the building where staffroom is situated) ... things are still the same, but they are also different... i saw my name on the 11As' list , surprisingly... memories in Kwang Hua that i had with my fellow friends reappeared once again in my mind, i think i'll never get to forget them... suddenly, i had a feeling of going back there to study again... funny, isn't it? ...
... after that , i walked to Jusco, all the way from Kwang Hua, just like what i always did last time... it was so hot, like each and everytime i walked myself there... but anyway, it was fun and great for me to experience this again... i guess i don't have many chances to do this anymore ... for seconds i really think that i'm still a student there...
... after going Jusco, i made up my mind to go on another journey... kind of crazy, but i did it before, too, even though only once or twice i think... guess what? i walked back again, from Jusco, to Klang Parade... by the time i reached there, it was almost half past twelve... so i rocketed into McD, had my lunch there and had a short little rest... there i met two of my juniors... what a co-incidence! they should be studying hard for their SPM! after having a really short conversation with them , i headed back home... hey juniors, appreciate your times in Kwang Hua with your besties, you'll miss them alot after leaving Kwang Hua...
... i took bus back from Klang, giving my journey a complete end... taking bus home was what i usually did when i was studying there... after tuitions, after co-curriculum activities, after prefect meetings, after friends outings, after class gatherings... taking bus home was an event which i can never forget... there were lots and lots of memories i had on bus... met people i hadn't met for a long time, met some people who i'll never forget in my entire life, squeezing myself in and out of the bus during peak hours, trying my best to breathe when i was standing or sitting beside people with body odour... and much more... some were nasty memories, but a lot more were fun and great memories... taking this bus trip back home really gave me the chance to experience and feel back all those memories i had...
... today's journey was like a gondola ride back into my past... went back to my former school, walked from there to Jusco, and ended it by taking bus back home... a complete and great journey for me... i've been missing my life in Kwang Hua for some times, so i'm grateful that i get this chance to refresh my memories again... maybe God wants me to remember it for the rest of my life... don't worry, i don't think i'll be able to forget any of them... i know i don't have many chances left before i go Indonesia next year, so all the memories i had there with everyone i met in Kwang Hua shall i carve in my heart, mind and soul, so that i'll never ever forget...
... i'm happy ...

everything will be just fine...

... OH MY GOODNESS!!! can't believe it really happened!!! ...
... today morning, when i woke up from my sweet dream of meeting my idols, my mum told me that my dad's car was stolen last night... stunned for a few seconds, i asked my mum again, not believing what i just heard... "Papa's car is stolen!" ... okay, this is clear... but WHAT?! Dad's car is stolen?! by who? how come this happened? ... couldn't believe it! ...
... what happened next was exactly like what all of you may expect --- i asked times and times for details, to know what exactly happened from top to bottom, from the second when they realised that the car was gone until the minute i woke up ...
... and this is what happened: (sounds like story-telling) at about five o'clock in the morning, my mum and sister woke up... when my mum was opening the front gate for my sister, she realised that the spot where my dad parked his car (which is just opposite our house) was totally empty! the car was gone!... and so they woke my dad up, and they reported to the police... ( according to my young sister, my dad just sprang up from bed when my elder sister told him that his car was gone... :p)
... today morning was a busy day for all of us, not that we have to report the case, but to explain the whole thing over and over again to all the people who asked... Malaysians are really "caring" , don't they? now i can "feel" how "much" they "care" for us, when you needed it LEAST!! the aunties, one after another, either came over or gave phonecalls, made my younger sister and i kind of annoyed... actually today was the day for us to clean up our stuff, but thanks to them, we did nothing but cleaning two small little drawers...
... but everything will be fine, everything will be just fine, i believe... my dad drives my mum's car to work temporarily, hoping that our dear policemen will find the car back... ( erm, the chances are slim, really slim, but just give them a chance to prove their abilities :p) every cloud has a silver lining ( is it?) , things will be just fine...

suddenly realised...

... suddenly realised that i have only less than one year left before i go Indonesia for my studies ...
... hard to believe, isn't it? it's like only few months before i stepped out from Kwang Hua for the last time as a Form 5 student ... time really flies ...
... everyone went on different journey in their lives, proceeding on... of course, i did proceed in my life too... accepted Public Service Department's offer for a medicine degree programme in Indonesia, started my college life (well, it is a college after all, even though it doesn't really look like it) in KTT, the college which i've never ever heard before in my life! well, things seem to go really fast... only 4 months passed, and i've completed what people took almost ten months to complete ... my A-level programme is really an "accelerated" programme i must say...
... now there are about seven or eight months before my departure to Indonesia ... seems like there's a long way to go right? it may seem so , but trust me, time flies... there isn't really much time left before my departure, especially when everyone gets so busy in their studies and lives...
... realising that i'm going overseas in about only half a year, i must waste no more time...
... appreciate and live my life here to the maximum, because i know when i come back years later, life will never be the same again...
... to be frank, i'll be missing people here, especially my family, and my friends... it's always hard to leave all your friends and family... so i shall not miss out any of the gatherings if possible, trying to collect as many beautiful memories here with my friends... memories here i will take together to Indonesia...
... about half a year left before i go Indonesia, suddenly realised, i shall make wise of my every minute and second here...

i'm back, after 39 days of disappearance...

... my AS exams are finally finished... glad that i didn't spoil any of the papers...
... from 14th of October until today evening, i was in my college ...
... means that i've stayed there for more than a month!!! it's 39 days!!! my college-mates laughed at me for staying there for so long in fact that Klang is just an hour's drive from there... "Just go home larh, stay here for what?! You very funny wan lorr... Stay Klang also don't want to go back..." This was what a lot of people said to me... but i didn't go home after all, until my exams are finally over... haha, quite proud of my determination and courage and what-so-ever ...
... staying there for one whole month wasn't something easy, especially when you are left all alone there... the college was like a dead town, as most of the people were back at their sweet home during the public holidays... i know the college itself is already situated among some deserted shoplots, but during that time it gets worse,and more like a dead town...
... the one-month stayover at my college actually gave me plenty of time to think, and of course, study... it's easy to get emotional there, especially when you are alone... i actually got sick, "homesick" during the second and third week there... missed my home so so much that i really wanted to withdraw from the exams and go home straight... luckily i held to myself, haha ...
... after staying there for one month, i realised that i actually missed my life in Kwang Hua so much... the five years i spent in Kwang Hua was so fun and memorable, and all the memories were so to be cherished... i wish i could go back to that time... really...
... yesterday the seniors finished their exams, and some of them already went home... i didn't get the chance to take photos with them, and i regret it... i love my seniors there, most of them... haha... had some great times with the seniors , especially during weekends when everyone was too bored that we ended up chatting and talking nonsense at the student lounge... what will life be without the seniors??? it would be much more boring i guess... i think i will miss them a lot, actually i already miss them... thank you seniors!!! love you all!!! all the best in your future undertakings!!!
... and now i'm back, ready for my precious one week holidays!!! and after my holidays, it's time for another hectic semester, my last semester in KTT, the semester without seniors...