... yesterday was Thursday, the day which we'll have practical class for Biology in the afternoon ...
... the class was on, and the experiment we were going to perform is about the respiration of germinating beans and crickets ... i've been looking forward to this for such a long time, and i was pretty sure that i could perform the experiment well ... well, based on the practical manual, the experiment is not hard to be constructed, so i had confidence in myself that i can do well ...
... and so i went to the biology lab full with confidence and all ...
... and my practical started off really smooth indeed ... grabbed all the apparatus i need, then i caught a cricket in the container provided ... well, it's just a cricket, nothing to be afraid of ... satisfied with my performance so far ...
... then i arranged my apparatus and started constructing the experiment ... yes, my cricket is still alive ... so far so good ...
... things started to go completely wrong then ... i waited and waited, but the coloured dye just didn't move ... IT'S SUPPOSED TO MOVE IN A FEW MINUTES' TIME!!! is my cricket dead or it is NOT BREATHING?! i checked on my cricket in the tube ... no, it's still alive! then what's wrong?? confused, i repeated the experiment again ... and the results i got was still the same ...
... not believing what happened, i asked for my lecturer's help ... and what she could tell was that i've arranged my apparatus wrongly ... alright then, then i did the experiment again, but this time with two crickets ... and FINALLY it worked!! ...
... getting excited again, i tried on the experiment with three crickets ... but again,the experiment didn't work out ... i just couldn't believe it ... all my classmates had finished most of the experiments!! i was the only one left!!! NOOO!!! why am i such a failure in this? that was really frustrating ...
... so i repeated the experiment again and again, but what i got was just failures and failures ... i couldn't take it anymore ... so i skipped the experiment and moved on to the one with germinating beans ... and BELIEVE IT OR NOT?! I FAILED THAT EXPERIMENT EITHER!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! i felt like crying ... i was tired of all these!! why can't i finish my practical?? ...
... at last, i gave up my experiment, as there was no time left, and my lecturer had to leave ... what can i do? what else can i do about this? ... oh, i only wished if my next practical will go as smooth as possible ... please ...
Thursday, December 13, 2007
Monday, December 10, 2007
of honey and clover ...
... at last, i've finished watching HONEY AND CLOVER 2 , my favourite anime series ...
... just as what i've told before, the second season of the anime is much more emotional compared to the first season and has shedded more tears then before ... the story still evolves between Takemoto, Morita, Hagu, Mayama and Yamada, the five good friends ...
... in this season, the love triangle between Hagu, Takemoto and Morita is finally solved ... to my surprise, neither Takemoto nor Morita gets together with Hagumi in the end ... although she loves Morita, Hagu still chose to be with Shuuji for the rest of her life ... yeah, maybe love counts all for some people, but for some, the purpose of life is more important ... Hagu's life is motivated by Shuuji, the only person who can encourage her and sacrifice every single thing just for her ...
... in the end, all of them are separated ... that makes me so sad ... it reminds me of all of us, who are studying at different places ... sooner or later, we'll all be in different countries, living different lives and meet different people ... but still, i believe that each and everyone of us will cherish our friendship no matter where we are ... just like what Takemoto said in the end of the anime, " those miraculous days, you and i, and all of us, being together and searching for just that one thing, those days are bittersweet memories of my life ... " ... yes, i will remember those days when we were all together, going through lives hand by hand, and all those bittersweet memories we made together, shall i keep and cherish for the rest of my life ...
... HONEY AND CLOVER 2, the one anime i will always remember ... great anime ...
... just as what i've told before, the second season of the anime is much more emotional compared to the first season and has shedded more tears then before ... the story still evolves between Takemoto, Morita, Hagu, Mayama and Yamada, the five good friends ...
... in this season, the love triangle between Hagu, Takemoto and Morita is finally solved ... to my surprise, neither Takemoto nor Morita gets together with Hagumi in the end ... although she loves Morita, Hagu still chose to be with Shuuji for the rest of her life ... yeah, maybe love counts all for some people, but for some, the purpose of life is more important ... Hagu's life is motivated by Shuuji, the only person who can encourage her and sacrifice every single thing just for her ...
... in the end, all of them are separated ... that makes me so sad ... it reminds me of all of us, who are studying at different places ... sooner or later, we'll all be in different countries, living different lives and meet different people ... but still, i believe that each and everyone of us will cherish our friendship no matter where we are ... just like what Takemoto said in the end of the anime, " those miraculous days, you and i, and all of us, being together and searching for just that one thing, those days are bittersweet memories of my life ... " ... yes, i will remember those days when we were all together, going through lives hand by hand, and all those bittersweet memories we made together, shall i keep and cherish for the rest of my life ...
... HONEY AND CLOVER 2, the one anime i will always remember ... great anime ...
Friday, December 7, 2007
things will never be the same again ...
... losing it ...
... i'm losing the friendships i've been trying to make all these whiles ...
... i've lost my trust and faith and confidence in them ...
... i just couldn't open my heart to them anymore ...
... what should i do? ...
... what should i do when my friends are not to be trusted anymore? ...
... what should i do when my friends are likely to be stabbing my back? ...
... what should i do with these friends? ...
... what should i do with the friendships i've made? ...
... or make it like this ...
... what will you do if you're in my shoes? ...
... i just can't think of it anymore ...
... it's just so scary when you found out that your fellow friends whom you share your thoughts with them are actually doing something else behind you ...
... they cannot be trusted anymore ...
... should i just avoid them and let the friendships get weaker and weaker? ...
... or should i just keep my mouth shut and act like nothing happened, even that i've found out what they did? ...
... this is so hard ...
... i can't share my thoughts anymore with them ...
... i can't open my heart anymore with them ...
... maybe they are still my friends ...
... but things will never be the same again ...
... it will never be the same again ...
... all my thoughts, my feelings, my secrets ...
... will be kept far away from their reach from now on ...
... forever ...
... i'm losing the friendships i've been trying to make all these whiles ...
... i've lost my trust and faith and confidence in them ...
... i just couldn't open my heart to them anymore ...
... what should i do? ...
... what should i do when my friends are not to be trusted anymore? ...
... what should i do when my friends are likely to be stabbing my back? ...
... what should i do with these friends? ...
... what should i do with the friendships i've made? ...
... or make it like this ...
... what will you do if you're in my shoes? ...
... i just can't think of it anymore ...
... it's just so scary when you found out that your fellow friends whom you share your thoughts with them are actually doing something else behind you ...
... they cannot be trusted anymore ...
... should i just avoid them and let the friendships get weaker and weaker? ...
... or should i just keep my mouth shut and act like nothing happened, even that i've found out what they did? ...
... this is so hard ...
... i can't share my thoughts anymore with them ...
... i can't open my heart anymore with them ...
... maybe they are still my friends ...
... but things will never be the same again ...
... it will never be the same again ...
... all my thoughts, my feelings, my secrets ...
... will be kept far away from their reach from now on ...
... forever ...
review: Mitch Albom < tuesdays with morrie >
... these few days i've reading Mitch Albom's , and i actually find it as an interesting, and touching book ...
... it is about the 14 tuesdays the author had with his old professor, Morrie, who was suffering a terminal disease and was about to die, before the death of the professor ...
... after the author graduated from the university, he started to work and work, gaining more and more money, and was aiming to live a better life ... at this time, he got to know about his old professor, Morrie, which was on TV, being interviewed about his life after he knew that he's got ALS, a terminal disease, and only have a few more months of life ... when he knew about this, the author decided to go visit Morrie, the person he promised to keep in touch and will go back to visit him ... apparently, the author has forgotten his promise to the professor, until he saw him again on TV ... i was thinking, maybe we, all of us, have also forgotten some promises we have made in our lives, maybe including some important promises, to us and to the others ...
... the following tuesdays the author and Morrie spent time together, discussing issues which are important and essential in one's life ... emotions, life, death, love, forgiveness and lots more ... i really learn a lot from their conversations, especially from Morrie ... i admire him, no, i adore him ... i adore his calmness and his attitude towards life , and i adore how he could look at life so differently ... and of course, the way he gives his heart for everyone he cares and his ability to laugh and cry when he feels right to do so ... many of us don't laugh or cry even from our own heart, laughing when people are laughing, even if we don't feel funny at all , and refused to cry even when our heart hurt so much...
... Morrie actually got weaker and weaker from day to day, losing his ability to take care of himself ... it's hard to see him getting weaker and weaker and the disease slowly conquers over his body ... that was sad when he actually lost his ability to move his arms and legs ... i can't imagine if i lose all these abilities ...
... <> is indeed a good book to read ... a lot of facts of life to be learnt, if you appreciate the book and enjoy reading it ... me myself have learnt a lot from the book ...
... it is about the 14 tuesdays the author had with his old professor, Morrie, who was suffering a terminal disease and was about to die, before the death of the professor ...
... after the author graduated from the university, he started to work and work, gaining more and more money, and was aiming to live a better life ... at this time, he got to know about his old professor, Morrie, which was on TV, being interviewed about his life after he knew that he's got ALS, a terminal disease, and only have a few more months of life ... when he knew about this, the author decided to go visit Morrie, the person he promised to keep in touch and will go back to visit him ... apparently, the author has forgotten his promise to the professor, until he saw him again on TV ... i was thinking, maybe we, all of us, have also forgotten some promises we have made in our lives, maybe including some important promises, to us and to the others ...
... the following tuesdays the author and Morrie spent time together, discussing issues which are important and essential in one's life ... emotions, life, death, love, forgiveness and lots more ... i really learn a lot from their conversations, especially from Morrie ... i admire him, no, i adore him ... i adore his calmness and his attitude towards life , and i adore how he could look at life so differently ... and of course, the way he gives his heart for everyone he cares and his ability to laugh and cry when he feels right to do so ... many of us don't laugh or cry even from our own heart, laughing when people are laughing, even if we don't feel funny at all , and refused to cry even when our heart hurt so much...
... Morrie actually got weaker and weaker from day to day, losing his ability to take care of himself ... it's hard to see him getting weaker and weaker and the disease slowly conquers over his body ... that was sad when he actually lost his ability to move his arms and legs ... i can't imagine if i lose all these abilities ...
... <> is indeed a good book to read ... a lot of facts of life to be learnt, if you appreciate the book and enjoy reading it ... me myself have learnt a lot from the book ...
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
rainy day...
... it has been raining whole day long ...
... looking out from my apartment's balcony ...
... i can see raindrops falling down to the rooftop of the burger stall downstairs, on the Christmas tree they bought last week, and on the tar road with no car parking in the parking space provided ...
... staring at the two small hills near my college, but only blur images can be seen, as if the heavy rain is a layer of curtain, hiding the real look of the hills ...
... and so i stared at the hills, for a couple of time, when a small bird flew in and stopped on the Christmas tree ...
... the rain is getting heavier ...
... i stretch my hands out from the balcony, trying to get to feel some raindrops , and then my whole head ... in the end my whole head got wet ...
... finally, tears in my eyes flow down along with the raindrops ...
... i cried, at last, i cried ...
... and it is still raining ...
... looking out from my apartment's balcony ...
... i can see raindrops falling down to the rooftop of the burger stall downstairs, on the Christmas tree they bought last week, and on the tar road with no car parking in the parking space provided ...
... staring at the two small hills near my college, but only blur images can be seen, as if the heavy rain is a layer of curtain, hiding the real look of the hills ...
... and so i stared at the hills, for a couple of time, when a small bird flew in and stopped on the Christmas tree ...
... the rain is getting heavier ...
... i stretch my hands out from the balcony, trying to get to feel some raindrops , and then my whole head ... in the end my whole head got wet ...
... finally, tears in my eyes flow down along with the raindrops ...
... i cried, at last, i cried ...
... and it is still raining ...
Monday, December 3, 2007
friends? enemy? both.neither...
... miserable ...
... confused ...
... my heart just shattered when i found out that ...
... friendship can actually be this weak ...
... i just couldn't believe it ...
... or ...
... i just force myself not to believe it ...
... lost my trust and faith in the friendship i've made with made ...
... i'm confused now ...
... are they friends to me? ...
... or i shall consider them as enemies ? ...
... maybe they are both friends and enemies ...
... changing their roles and faces from time to time ...
... chatting and playing together ...
... but stab knives at your back at the same time ...
... or maybe ...
... they are neither friends nor enemies ...
... not enemies, because i don't hate them at all ...
... not friends, because they don't consider me so ...
... i don't know ...
... i couldn't think more about it ...
... friends? enemy? ...
... i've lost my ability to differentiate between them ...
... help me , please ...
... save me, please ...
... tears rolling down my eyes ...
... confused ...
... my heart just shattered when i found out that ...
... friendship can actually be this weak ...
... i just couldn't believe it ...
... or ...
... i just force myself not to believe it ...
... lost my trust and faith in the friendship i've made with made ...
... i'm confused now ...
... are they friends to me? ...
... or i shall consider them as enemies ? ...
... maybe they are both friends and enemies ...
... changing their roles and faces from time to time ...
... chatting and playing together ...
... but stab knives at your back at the same time ...
... or maybe ...
... they are neither friends nor enemies ...
... not enemies, because i don't hate them at all ...
... not friends, because they don't consider me so ...
... i don't know ...
... i couldn't think more about it ...
... friends? enemy? ...
... i've lost my ability to differentiate between them ...
... help me , please ...
... save me, please ...
... tears rolling down my eyes ...
so disappointing...
... and so my new semester begins ...
... after one week of holidays, i'm back in the college again ...
... still in holiday mood , but what to do? i have to get started with my studies ...
... GO GO KEAN SENG!!! don't mess around anymore, you have to start studying!!! ...
... how great it would be if i have another week of holidays ...
... haha, here i go day-dreaming again ...
... after one week of holidays, i'm back in the college again ...
... still in holiday mood , but what to do? i have to get started with my studies ...
... GO GO KEAN SENG!!! don't mess around anymore, you have to start studying!!! ...
... how great it would be if i have another week of holidays ...
... haha, here i go day-dreaming again ...
Sunday, December 2, 2007
review: My Football Summer
... was the winner of the Best Documentary of the 43th Golden Horse Award ... last Saturday, AEC aired this award-winning documentary, which is all about a group of native children who have a passion in football ...
... the documentary is about a group of lower secondary students in Hua Lian, Taiwan, who loves football and have passion in it ... all of them are members of the school's football team, and all of them are natives too ... the two-hours documentary talks about how hard they worked for the championship and their lives after school ... the team eventually made their way into the final in their last year in the school ... although they didn't win the championship in the end, their spirits in the match is still something to be proud of ... when they are trailing most of the time throughout the match, they didn't give up, but played even better that they actually drew with their opponent team ... they just lost in the penalty kick ...
... i personally admire their hard work and their spirit on their road to the final ... even though they didn't win, the memory they've gained, the friendship they've made are still somthing to be cherished for the rest of their lives ... even the tears they shedded after their lost in the final will be a great memory ... at least they didn't give up till the end of the match ...
... other than that, i really admire the strong friendship they've made in those years ... even after they went to different high schools and joined different football teams, they're still good friends ... this is something that i've always wanted ... ever-lasting best friends ... i know i have them too, and i'm grateful of it ...
... when i was watching the documentary, the memories i had with my besties in Kwang Hua kept on coming into my mind ... watching them, watching how they supported each other was like looking back at another me when i was still in Kwang Hua ...really missed those times when we were still together, playing and studying together, sharing our lives together ...
... the memories the kids had in those years, they will remember and cherish them for the rest of their lives ... something they'll never forget ... so do i ... it was their football summer, the summer of all the loves and fun ... and i had my summer too, with all the friends i love the most ...
... the documentary is about a group of lower secondary students in Hua Lian, Taiwan, who loves football and have passion in it ... all of them are members of the school's football team, and all of them are natives too ... the two-hours documentary talks about how hard they worked for the championship and their lives after school ... the team eventually made their way into the final in their last year in the school ... although they didn't win the championship in the end, their spirits in the match is still something to be proud of ... when they are trailing most of the time throughout the match, they didn't give up, but played even better that they actually drew with their opponent team ... they just lost in the penalty kick ...
... i personally admire their hard work and their spirit on their road to the final ... even though they didn't win, the memory they've gained, the friendship they've made are still somthing to be cherished for the rest of their lives ... even the tears they shedded after their lost in the final will be a great memory ... at least they didn't give up till the end of the match ...
... other than that, i really admire the strong friendship they've made in those years ... even after they went to different high schools and joined different football teams, they're still good friends ... this is something that i've always wanted ... ever-lasting best friends ... i know i have them too, and i'm grateful of it ...
... when i was watching the documentary, the memories i had with my besties in Kwang Hua kept on coming into my mind ... watching them, watching how they supported each other was like looking back at another me when i was still in Kwang Hua ...really missed those times when we were still together, playing and studying together, sharing our lives together ...
... the memories the kids had in those years, they will remember and cherish them for the rest of their lives ... something they'll never forget ... so do i ... it was their football summer, the summer of all the loves and fun ... and i had my summer too, with all the friends i love the most ...
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