... smoky mountain memories ...

... You ought to go north somebody told us ...
... Cause the air is filled with gold dust ...
... And fortune falls like snow flakes in your hands ...
... Now I don't recall who said it ...
... But we'd lived so long on credit ...
... And so we headed out to find our promised land ...
... Just poor Smoky Mountains farm folk ...
... With nothing more than high hopes ...
... So we hitched our station wagon to a star ...
... But our dreams all fell in on us ...
... Cause there was no land of promise ...
... Though it's a stuggle just keepin' sight of who you are ...
... Oh and these northern nights are dreary ...
... And my southern heart is weary ...
... As I wonder how the old folks are back home ...
... But I know that they all love me ...
... And they're all thinking of me ...
... The Smoky Mountains memories keep me strong ...
... You know I've been thinkin' a whole lot lately ...
... About what's been and what awaits me ...
... It takes all I've got to give what life demands ...
... You go insane if you give in to it ...
... Life's a mill and I've been through it ...
... I'm just thankful I'm creative with my hands ...
... Oh and these northern nights they're dreary ...
... And my southern eyes are teary ...
... As I wonder how the old folks are back home ...
... But I'll keep leanin' on my Jesus ...
... He'll love and guide and lead us ...
... The Smoky Mountains memories keep me strong ...
... If I'll keep looking to the father ...
... Keep our heads above the water ...
... While the Smoky Mountains memories keep me strong ...

... we could have been better ...

... we could have been better friends, if i hadn't leave you behind ...
... we could have been better friends, if i had kept in touch with you all the time ...
... we could have been better friends, if i had shared with you more of my life ...
... we could have been better friends, if i had picked up my phone and called you once or twice ...
... we could have been better friends, if i had sent you a message asking you "are you doing fine? " ...
... we could have been better friends, if i had done all these ...
... but i hadn't ...
... i hadn't been calling you because i got so busy with my new life ...
... i hadn't been messaging you because i got the feeling that you might be busy at time ...
... i hadn't been sharing with you more of my life just because i thought ...
... because i thought you might not even want to listen ...
... because i thought you might have found friends better than me ...
... but i was wrong ...
... until this very moment, you are still a best friend of mine, and you will still be, to the very end of my life ...
... i really don't want to lose you ...
... even though i'm losing you bits by bits ...
... so long, my friend ...
... may we become as how we used to be before ...
... friendship forever for you, if you wish ...

what if ...

... standing here, i look back, at the path i have taken this far ...
... no regrets, but what if ...
... what if i chose another pathway before this? ...
... what would i be then? ...
... will i still the same me now? ...
... what if ...
... what if i chose to stay in my small town instead of going Kwang Hua? ...
... then i wouldn't have known so many people, so many people i love and care so much ...
... then i wouldn't have learnt so many things which mould me into who i am today ...
... what if i didn't accept the scholarship? ...
... then maybe my life will still be the same, lingering with same bunch of friends from Kwang Hua in Form 6 ...
... then my life would have been easier, there is no need to travel two hours in a crowded KTM almost every week ...
... what if i didn't choose medicine as my future career? ...
... then maybe i'll still be in dilemma of choosing my pathway in the future ...
... what if i didn't get to know all these friends i love? ...
... then my life would have been so empty and dull that i would have been a studyworm instead ...
... what if i hadn't create all those memories i cherish so much until now? ...
... then maybe i will have less tears and laughs, but i will have nothing much to look back at this moment either ...
... what if ... what if ...
... if i had chosen the other way, i wouldn't be the one i am today ...
... because i chose to go Kwang Hua for 5 years, i got to know all these people i love so much that i will miss them all my life ...
... because i chose medicine as my future career, i learnt so many things that i wouldn't have experienced in Form 6 ...
... because of what i decided and chose yesterday, here i stand today, the one who i am ...
... people change, maybe i will too, in the coming future ...
... who knows? what if ... what if i change? ...
... but, but i'll never forget, forget all these years i have been through ...
... all these memories i cherish ...
... will make me stronger tomorrow ...
... all the love and care i see, will be my strength to overcome any obstacles in the future ...
... but, but what if ... what if i forget all these? ...
... then all of you will remind me of all these ...
... standing here, i look up at the night sky ...
... yes, i am ready for whatever upnext ...
... with all the great memories of the past i carry ...
... i proceed on with strength and courage ...

... shannie ...

... this post is specially for you ...
... my best friend ...
... knowing you for 6 years, it's really my honour to know you in person ...
... i guess we have not been talking really much after secondary school ...
... starting off a new life is always not an easy task ...
... we parted to live our lives, live our own dreams ...
... but shall it always be intersections in our lives ...
... now in one month you're leaving ...
... to the land of kangaroos and koalas ...
... may our friendship last through the distances ...
... may our friendship stay strong till the end ...
... shannie ...
... stay strong ...
... laugh when you feel happy ...
... but don't hesitate to cry if you feel the need to cry it off ...
... just remember to wipe your tears after that, and live on with smiles ...
... the smile you've been putting on all these years ...
... the smile which you have affected me all these while ...
... shannie ...
... look at the night sky when you feel alone and lost and needed ...
... because you have all of us looking at the same sky and cheering for you ...
... even when we are half a world away ...
... shannie ...
... remember, you have us, and we have you ...
... i'll be missing you ...
... and for sure, our friendship won't fade away with distance ...
... good luck and be yourself in your future undertakings ...
... you'll have us with you all the time ...
... take care ...

... i'll miss them ...

... over 300 days together, day and night ...
... we shared our lives, no matter sorrow or joy ...
... we had our own sweet and nice memories ...
... we created memories of our own ...
... even in this place of isolation ...
... we managed to have fun of our own ...
... had our laughs and cheers ...
... even though in other people's eyes we are just weirdos doing silly things ...
... we were having fun, so? ...
... we were having a blast, so? ...
... have your own fun and live on, don't be jealous because you were not invited into the group ...
... and now i leave ...
... i thought i'd be glad to leave the place forever ...
... but at my very last night there ...
... there was a surge of emptiness ...
... something is pulling me back ...
... i think it was all my friends there ...
... the life we all shared there ...
... so now i leave ...
... with all the memories i carry ...
... sounds and images i will not leave any ...
... sounds of jokes and singings and pingpong and poker cards ...
... images of all my friends and my gang and my "family" ...
... i'll live on with all these memories you all gave me ...
... so, promise me, you all will live on well ...
... and me too, i promise all of you ...
... i will never ever ever forget anyone of you ...
... because guys, i miss all of you ...
... all of you ...
... i miss all of you ...
... and i will, in the future ...
... cherish all our memories ...
... and shall we meet in our futures ...