what if ...

... standing here, i look back, at the path i have taken this far ...
... no regrets, but what if ...
... what if i chose another pathway before this? ...
... what would i be then? ...
... will i still the same me now? ...
... what if ...
... what if i chose to stay in my small town instead of going Kwang Hua? ...
... then i wouldn't have known so many people, so many people i love and care so much ...
... then i wouldn't have learnt so many things which mould me into who i am today ...
... what if i didn't accept the scholarship? ...
... then maybe my life will still be the same, lingering with same bunch of friends from Kwang Hua in Form 6 ...
... then my life would have been easier, there is no need to travel two hours in a crowded KTM almost every week ...
... what if i didn't choose medicine as my future career? ...
... then maybe i'll still be in dilemma of choosing my pathway in the future ...
... what if i didn't get to know all these friends i love? ...
... then my life would have been so empty and dull that i would have been a studyworm instead ...
... what if i hadn't create all those memories i cherish so much until now? ...
... then maybe i will have less tears and laughs, but i will have nothing much to look back at this moment either ...
... what if ... what if ...
... if i had chosen the other way, i wouldn't be the one i am today ...
... because i chose to go Kwang Hua for 5 years, i got to know all these people i love so much that i will miss them all my life ...
... because i chose medicine as my future career, i learnt so many things that i wouldn't have experienced in Form 6 ...
... because of what i decided and chose yesterday, here i stand today, the one who i am ...
... people change, maybe i will too, in the coming future ...
... who knows? what if ... what if i change? ...
... but, but i'll never forget, forget all these years i have been through ...
... all these memories i cherish ...
... will make me stronger tomorrow ...
... all the love and care i see, will be my strength to overcome any obstacles in the future ...
... but, but what if ... what if i forget all these? ...
... then all of you will remind me of all these ...
... standing here, i look up at the night sky ...
... yes, i am ready for whatever upnext ...
... with all the great memories of the past i carry ...
... i proceed on with strength and courage ...