... happy birthday to me, again ...

... for the past few years i have been doing this ...
... happy birthday to me ...
... happy birthday to me ...
... happy birthday to me ...
... happy birthday to me ...
... can't believe that i have to do this again ...
... in this year, this very important year for me ...
... it's my 18th birthday ...
... it's my last birthday before flying to a land where i'm not really sure if there's any secret recipe or even baker's cottage ...
... before 12, birthday messages have been arriving, so many msn windows that i couldn't read all at a time ...
... adding to it, phone calls ...
... but, thank you people, really, thank you for what you all have done for me ...
... i appreciate it very very very much ...
... but still, there's still something missing which i can't tell, because me myself just can't figure out what that is either ...
... but yes, still, there's something missing, and i can feel it really much ...
... that makes me a little sad and down in the very first hour of my birthday ...
... then the day passed just like that ...
... yes, i'm sure that there's a "what?!" thought now in your mind ...
... that's what i'm thinking ...
... but still, what happened was what had really happened ...
... the day had passed just like that, JUST LIKE THAT ...
... i'm not expecting much, but please, at least make me feel good on my very own birthday ...
... sorry to say that i don't feel really happy and excited on my birthday this year, as i said, something is missing, and that thing is important as it is ...
... the electricity went "off" in the middle of the night, a heavy downpour in the morning, 3 pieces of biscuits, it's Jacob's, for breakfast, plus an apple, instant noodles for lunch, thank GOD it was korean instant noodles, HAHAHA, and then, no cake, no birthday cake because i refused to buy any cake from the cakehouse out there since their cakes are ridiculously sweet and oily and NOT LIKELY TO EVEN BE SWALLOWED INTO MY MOUTH!!! ...
... so, what do you think? ...
... how could i not feel down as i'm going through this MISERABLE UNEXPECTEDLY BAD LEGAL AND SWEET IF IT MAY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!! ...
... alright end of story ...
... i'm not writing those things anymore ...
... before the clock ticks at 12 again to end my very very very PRECIOUS 18th birthday, i shall sing it once again ...
... happy birthday to me ...